It's been a while, but it feels like yesterday

So October is just around the corner. How did that happen? Time is escaping me these days. I never know where to start because too many things are constantly flying around in my head.

I guess I'll start by saying I have yet to apply for camp next year. I don't know why. My heart yearns to be with my boys, but something is holding me back. I guess I'm still fearful of what my future holds. Or maybe the fact that I don't know what it holds.

Wednesday there was an over seas day in Rudder where all of these organizations came and displayed their trips and adventures for us college kids to see. There was only one table about Africa. I went over and talked to the man. He was from Ghana. His accent was amazing. I could have sat there all day long, but unfortunately the business of life didn't allow me to. Anyways, he gave me his card and I just emailed him. I'm sure it was so random and ridiculous. I don't really know what I want or how he could help, but I thought maybe he could give me some direction. We'll see.

Today I got a letter in the mail. I'm constantly on the go. Doing this and that for different organizations and friends. But this stopped me today.

"I think you should be a missionary as your life work."

I don't even know what that means or how I would go about doing that. Basically I don't know anything right now. And that scares me.